DEAR MOM

I bought this card for you because,
I wanted you to know.
That I have had you on my mind,
And that I love you so.

It seems you got away so fast,
My good-bye was not done right
.
Too late now to rectify,
To say sleep well, good night.

What happened to the time?
How did it get away?
You know, I don't remember,
When your hair began to gray.

So wrapped up in myself, I guess,
My ambitions, plans, and dreams
.
When did you start this aging thing?
I never knew, it seems.

I remember all our good times,
And I forget the bad
.
I remember how you laughed a lot,
That I seldom saw you sad.

And when you were feeling low,
You knew how to stop the tears
.
You always seemed to wear a smile,
You rarely showed your fears.

How insensitive I was,
I ignored so many clues
.
When I said, "I cannot come,"
How much did that hurt you?

I always said, if things got rough,
That I would be right there
.
But when they did, you didn't call,
So you could not know I cared.

I came the minute that I heard,
Though much too late by then
.
Already you had gone away,
I could not make amends.

I never got a chance to tell you,
Thanks for this or thanks for that
.
I never got to say I love you,
To give you heartfelt hugs and pats.

In ways, we shut each other out,
I guess we both built walls
.
You tried not to be a burden,
And I oft forgot to call.

You did not want to be a bother,
And I respected you for that
.
But your unselfishness deprived me,
Of my own unselfish acts.

Independence may be virtuous,
Though I'm not sure it's all that wise
.
For it could cause someone to miss
A loved one's need kept from his eyes.

Our communication faltered,
But I should have let you know
.
My dear, sweet, stubborn mother,
Your stubborn daughter loved you so.

You will never get this letter,
This card will not go out
.
But when God deems we meet again,
Please, let's share hugs and thoughts.

Virginia (Ginny) Ellis
Copyright 2000




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